December Recap & January Goals

New month, new YEAR, new goals!

First let’s take a look back at December…

Workout 5x per week. Did this!! This is a goal I’m carrying into the new year!

Say no. I did. I said no. I had some guilt. I even got into a dispute with family. But I held my ground and said no for my mental health this month. I don’t regret it.

Santa Pictures and Locomotive Park. We did get Santa pictures taken but we never made it to the light park this year.

Buy a 2019 planner. Done! I bought a planner from Commit 30 and I LOVE!!

So let’s take a look at what I want to accomplish in January!

Read to the boys 5x per week. As a teacher mom this is so shameful for me to admit but I don’t read to my kids. I know it’s awful because I know how important it is and I tell parents of my students alll the time to read with their kids. So, it’s time I make a conscious effort to read with my boys!

Workout 5x per week. I wanna keep it up!

Hot Shots coffee only on Fridays. I have an expensive habit of stopping by Hot Shots every morning on the way to work, and even on the weekend before getting groceries. I want to make it a treat by only getting an iced Americano once a week!

Leave my phone in my purse until the boys go to bed after work. Hi, my name is Tara and I’m a phoneoholic. Seriously. I’m addicted to my phone and I’m setting a terrible example for my kids and screen time. If my phone rings or I get a text I will take my phone out and check it. But otherwise it’s staying in my purse so I stay off social media!

And there ya have it. I hate January. It’s just a long, dark, cold month and I hope it goes by fast!!

Weekend Recap • Fishing & Friends

This last weekend was one for the books! After a ton of family time over the holidays this weekend was all about our friends and it was SO good!

Friday night Nathan and I took the boys over to Grandma and Grandpa’s house for a sleepover. After we dropped the boys off we came home and made dinner together while getting everything ready for our fishing trip. We headed to bed early knowing that we were getting up early.

Saturday we got up at 4am to hit the river with our best friends Adam and Brittnie. Adam has a drift boat and while Nathan’s fished out of it a few times it was my first time in a drift boat. We got all bundled up but the weather was actually pretty dang nice for the end of December. Us girls rode in the front, Adam rowed and Nathan rode in the back of the boat. The best part? Besides being on the quiet, beautiful river with good friends? The fishing was AWESOME! Both Brittnie and I tagged out. I fought the biggest fish I’ve ever caught! It was a 15 pound male steelhead and he was strong! It was one I will always remember.

We got home around 4:30pm and we had all our friends coming over for dinner and social at 5pm so we rushed to shower up and get ready. 5pm our friends showed up! We had 14 adults and 8 kids making it a full house. We ate dinner, played games and just hung out. It was the best.

Sunday was recovery. We were wiped out after such a fun filled, full day. Nathan cleaned fish and prepped it for smoke. We just relaxed at home together. I baked a pork loin for dinner and it was a great Sunday knowing that I still had a few days left before heading back to work.

2018 Reflection

2018 was…hard. It was change. It was heartbreak. But it wasn’t all bad. There were some really great memories made with my boys. A LOT of fishing! So much fishing. I reclaimed my health and was the most fit I’ve ever been in my life. A new job. So let’s look back at 2018 starting at the beginning.

January.

I am not a fan of January. It feels like the longest month of the entire year. It’s like time stands still and we’re just stuck in winter. I hate winter. I should definitely work on my attitude towards January. Anyway, nothing really happened in January 2018 but I did get my brand new tonneau  cover that Nathan bought me for Christmas.

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February.

We started February with influenza. Both boys caught it and it was miserable. My babies were so sick and it sucked! We also celebrated mine and Joshua’s birthday.

March.

March was the start to bass fishing! We had some really beautiful days in March and were able to get outside after being cooped up all winter.

April.

April we enjoyed Spring Break! The boys and I went to the Aquatic Center and did a little fishing. I also fell in love with Brett Eldredge in April. My parents had bought me concert tickets for the Long Way Tour in Pullman and I asked my friend Brittnie to come with me. We had the BEST time at the concert. It became my most favorite concert, ever.

May.

May was a big month. I interviewed for the Lewiston School District TWICE and got the officially phone call on the 21st from the assistant superintendent offering me a 2nd grade job at Webster Elementary. I made the official announcement on social media. Joshua also graduated kindergarten and it was our last couple of weeks being at the same school together. I will always remember that special year of teaching kinder with my boy in the classroom next year learning from the best teacher I know and my best friend. Special.

June.

June was hard. June was goodbye. Joshua and I had to say goodbye to Asotin Elementary. We also had the BASS Nation State Qualifier hosted out of Harrison, Idaho on Lake Couer D’ Alene. Nathan made the state team as a pro angler and we were so excited! We had the best time, as always, fishing off the docks in Harrison.

July.

July was a little harder month. We started off the month pretty good. We celebrated the 4th of July, I had a deck date with my bestie, attended my first Sprenger Open to Defeat ALS andwe went back to Harrison for the PBA Classic. More family time and fishing on the docks! The best.

My dad continued to struggle with his alcoholism and my family was fed up with it! My mom moved into my grandma’s house. A few days later my dad had a bad fall and hit his head. My brother found him face down on the bathroom floor and called 911. He was rushed to the ER and had emergency brain surgery for bleeding.

I had to get away for a weekend while my dad was in the ICU so we headed up to the North Fork of the Clearwater with some of our best friends. My mind of course was with my dad but it felt so good to laugh with our friends and just relax.

August.

August was the hardest. August 1st we lifted my dad’s life support and passed away. It has been the hardest goodbye. August 10th, on the morning of dad’s funeral, Nathan and I bought our brand new camper! I think Dad had a hand in this. We had been looking for months for a new camper and couldn’t find exactly what we wanted for our price range. As fate would have it we found this one that morning. Our DREAM camper! I spoke at Dad’s service and we were surrounded with love from family and friends. On August 4th (dad’s birthday) Nathan took me upriver with the boys to fish off a beach. I think he knew I needed a day like that.

Joshua had his first day of 1st grade at Camelot Elementary and I had my first day of teaching 2nd grade at Webster Elementary. I was also busy with new to the district meetings and trainings. August was such a busy, complicated month that it’s hard to even recall it. It’s kind of a blur.

September.

September we took one last camping trip to the Lochsa River. We camped at the Wilderness Gateway and it was just what I needed after so much busy.

Grady started school for the very first time at Wonder World pre-school. I also went to the rodeo for Kaitlin’s bachelorette party.

We celebrated mom’s birthday at El’ Sombreoro on the 13th. Joshua attended his first basketball camp with the LCSC Warriors men’s basketball team and the boys got to ride a horse for the first time out at the Greene ranch.

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October.

October we were blessed with so many beautiful days. The weather was awesome! We took advantage of one of those days and took the boys bass fishing on the Skeeter. We had the best day. The boys love fishing on the boat and so do we! Nathan got a super nice fall smallmouth.

We also had the Greene wedding! It was Clay’s turn to get married. And he married UP that’s for certain! We love Kaitlin and are so happy to welcome her to our framily. Nathan was a groomsmen and Grady was the ring bearer.

We finished October with Halloween. Joshua was Pikachu and Grady was a skeleton again this year.

November.

We had Grateful November at Webster Elementary. I love our monthly spirit days promoting positive character traits.

November is also the month the boys got their new fishing boat! Nathan finally found the perfect Lund on Craigslist in CDA. We drove up after work on a Friday night to pick it up. As fate would have it it dumped a couple of inches of snow on the drive up. Nathan wasn’t feeling comfortable pulling a boat he hadn’t towed before on the snowy highway, in the dark, with his entire family in the truck so we decided to find a hotel room and stay the night! It was completely unplanned and turned out to be one of my favorite memories of 2018. We ate dinner at The Olive Pit and stayed in a nice hotel. The boys loved it!

We also celebrated Thanksgiving at the cabin again. It’s my favorite tradition. We burned piles and piles of pine needles. The huge bonfire was so fun. It was peaceful and relaxing and we soaked up every minute of our couple days getaway to the cabin for the holiday.

December.

December was a welcomed 2 week break from school for the kids and I! We had Joshua’s Christmas concert at Lewiston High School and we made it up to my Uncle Mike’s for a Sprenger family Christmas.

We ended the month with a steelhead trip with great friends. I caught the biggest steelhead I’ve ever caught and it was a great finish to the year!

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Sunday Meal Planning

I started meal planning on Sundays a couple years ago and it’s changed my life! I used to stress throughout the day, everyday, about what I was going to cook for dinner that night. I would also spend a lot of money running to the grocery store almost every night to pick up what I needed to make dinner once I figured it out. Meal planning has helped my stress and my wallet. I just plan out meals for the entire week, make my ingredients list, put in the Walmart order and done!

This week it’s New Years and back to work after a much needed and relaxing break. Boy have I soaked up every minute of our winter break and I’m feeling rested and rejuvenated! It’s a nice ease back into the routine this week with nothing too crazy. After spending lots of money on holiday food I made the second part of the week cheap and easy! Here’s a look at our menu this week! (Mamas if you’re looking for meal ideas please copy whatever sounds right for your family. That’s why I’m starting these posts–to help others meal plan and steal ideas and recipes!)

Sunday: Seasoned pork loin, fried taters (which Joshua calls French fried potatoes! I want to try out my new iron skillet I got for Xmas) and green beans

Monday: New Year’s Eve! We are having some friends over for dinner and cards to make it a family oriented, low-key end to the year! We are grilling tri-tip steaks with a big ol’ green salad! Mimosas and sparkling apple cider. Cheers!

Tuesday: I am trying out my best friend’s new recipe. Chicken Parmesan Pasta Bake from Tractors and Glam. I will make some garlic French bread and steamed veggies to go with it!

Wednesday: First day back to school! I will be making mini meatloaf squares and baked steak fries. This is a recipe I will have to share sometime on the blog. It’s a good one!

Thursday: Tacos! (I will make mine into a salad) and rice.

Friday: Pizza Night! We love a Friday pizza night around here.

Hope you all have a great first week of the new year!

Friday Favorites

It was our last full week of Christmas break around here and it was a great week! This weekend we have fishing and friends and I can’t wait! Here’s a look at some favorites from the week…

LCSC Warrior basketball camp is a FAVORITE in this house! The Warriors put on a day camp the day after Christmas and Joshua was so excited, especially after getting a basketball hoop from Santa.

Speaking of which, the basketball hoop and watching the boys play basketball is my FAVORITE!

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Have you tried Skinny Pop? Oh my gosh it’s my FAVORITE and a serving is a full cup for only 39 calories. Plus it’s non GMO. Win! I get this huge bag at Costco.

Another favorite has been making a shake for breakfast. In the past I used Shakeology for my shakes but recently I found a new shake at Costco that is all organic and I love it! It’s called Orgain and it’s delicious. I add some pure cacao powder when I’m feeling like chocolate.

Nathan’s smoked prime rib on Christmas Day was a FAVORITE! Mouthwatering. So good. So good.

This necklace my mom gifted me is also my FAVORITE. It’s the last necklace my dad bought for my mom. He bought it for her during their last trip to Hawaii. Hawaii was one of his favorite places so it’s a great memory of my dad.

The boys are going to Grandma and Grandpa’s house tonight for a sleepover which is their FAVORITE while Nathan and I get husband and wife time which is our FAVORITE.

 

Addiction

I don’t know if this topic will become a regular on the blog or not but it’s something on my heart today so I’m going to share something with you. I was listening to Pastor Rick Warren of Saddleback church. You can listen to his ministry on YouTube and I love to listen while I’m getting ready for work in the mornings. And I was listening to a sermon the other day on how God blesses a broken heart and Mr. Warren said one statement that just hit me in the core in that moment.

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“Your greatest ministry will come out of your deepest hurt.”

And this has stuck with me since the moment I heard it. The thought of taking my deepest hurt, what haunts me the most, and turning it into something good. Something meaningful. Purposeful. Is powerful.

So I’ve been pondering this. How can I do this? What will this ministry look like? I’m not sure. It may take me months or years to figure that out. But I have to start. It has to start somewhere.

What is my deepest hurt? My father’s addiction to alcohol and losing him to his addiction.

I’m starting with research and gathering as much information as I can. And as I do this I want to share the information I find here in this space. And that’s my starting point. I don’t know where it will take me or what will happen with it.

So to start I’m sharing a Ted Talk that I have listened to 4 or 5 times now. The information shared in this Ted Talk about addiction will give you so much to ponder. Just listen and take a moment to ponder this message.

If you don’t want to listen to the entire Ted Talk (which if you’ve ever listened to TED before you know they are no more than 20 minutes) go to minute 12:44 and start there. This is where the dagger pierces my own heart.

 

“For a hundred years now we’ve been singing war songs about addicts. I think all along we should have been singing love songs to them. Because the opposite of addiction is not sobriety. The opposite of addiction is connection.” –Johann Hari

Christmas 2018

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This was the strangest feeling Christmas yet and in the spirit of being really REAL (because I’ve said this time and time again my blog is real life not the highlight reel of the social media world) I am so glad it’s over. The first Christmas without my dad is done and I am so thankful for that. Building up to it I didn’t feel this way. I was excited for Christmas and even found myself in the Christmas spirit. But as the holiday got closer and closer I found myself less and less excited about it. I tried really hard to make the best of it for my family but my heart had a significant hole in it. But the boys loved Christmas nonetheless in ways only children can.

Christmas Eve we went to Nathan’s parent’s house. We had French dips for dinner and they were delicious. Then we opened gifts. When we got home the boys got to open their Xmas Eve gift from me. I always buy them Christmas pajamas every year that they open on Xmas Eve. Normally I have a DVD with them but this year they got shark pocket blankets with their PJ’s and they were so excited!

We set out cookies and milk for Santa and the boys went to bed with anxious hearts. Nathan and I went downstairs and finished wrapping their stocking stuffers. Then we went out into the garage and wrapped their basketball hoop from Santa. It made such a giant present and we were so excited for the boys to wake up to it in the morning. Santa also got them basketballs and nerf footballs.

Joshua was up at 5am but I made him go back to bed for a bit. By 6:10am we were all up and in front of the tree opening presents. The bows from their daddy was on of their favorite gifts. And they were JACKED about their new basketball hoop from Santa!

Around Noon my mom came over to the spend Christmas Day with us. My Grandma also came over and we opened gifts with them. My mom gifted me the last necklace my dad ever bought her. He got it for her on their last vacation to Hawaii (they went almost every January) and this gift is so so special. Not only is this necklace beautiful but it represents my dad and I will think of him and Hawaii ever time I look at it.

Nathan’s parents also came over around 3pm and Nathan smoked a prime rib for the family. It was AMAZING! He did good. So good.

We sat around the table and enjoyed a few beers and good talk. Around 5:30pm everyone went home and I was wiped out. Just completely wiped. We all put on our PJ’s and Joshua was more than happy to wear his new Minecraft pajamas. We all were in bed by 7:30pm.

It was a very nice Christmas. I have so much to be grateful for. The health of my babies. My sweet husband. My mom who is getting stronger by the day who has been blessed in so many ways the last couple of months. My in-laws who mean the world to me. My grandma. We were fortunate to fill the house with gifts and were financially comfortable in doing so. My heart was grateful but it was also sad. I missed Grandma Linda and Papa Gene and Papa Jim and my Dad more than my little heart could handle this year. So I’m glad it’s over.

Weekend Recap • All the Christmas

Wow this weekend was packed full and so fun! Friday night after Nathan got home from work we had Papa Murphy’s for our pizza night and then we went and saw The Grinch! What a cute movie and we all loved it!

Saturday morning we headed up to Moscow, ID for the Sprenger Family Christmas (my mom’s side of the family.) Everyone could make it this year making it a full house. It was fun for the adult cousins to watch our children all play together as mini second cousins. We got together every summer and every Christmas when we were little and always all played so well together. So it was fun to watch all our kids together.

Saturday night the boys had a sleepover with my mom so Nathan and I got a date night! We went to Zany’s for dinner then came home and watched a movie.

Sunday morning my mom dropped the boys off and then we headed to Costco for our final holiday prep. We had one more gift to buy and a few little things for our Christmas dinner. When we got home Nathan headed out for his final stocking stuffers and I helped the boys organize their toys and clean out their playroom. By 2pm I could tell the boys were feeling it after a busy weekend. And well Christmas buildup can be a lot on little guys so I put each boy in their own room with a movie for some quiet time. My boys don’t nap anymore so this quiet time was so welcomed by Mom too!

I made chicken and dumplins for dinner and we are in the living room.

Then we all headed to bed. And today is Christmas Eve. Let the holiday begin!!

Merry Christmas!

If Pictures Could Talk

We post all these great pictures. Instagram and Facebook are loaded with pictures keeping our friends and family in the loop and staying connected. But the pictures themselves only tell part of the story. There is so much more that happened around that photo. I always thought it would be interesting if pictures could talk and tell EVERYTHING!

I mean, right? Our photo captions don’t always tell the whole truth.

Like, “This is the 8th selfie she’s taken before finally posting it to her Instastory.”

So if pictures could talk this one would tell you…

…that Grady was having a huge meltdown right before this photo was taken and mom was super bummed.

For the first day of Christmas Break I thought it would be fun to take the kids to see Santa Claus in the mall. They were so excited to get all dressed up in their handsome clothes and Grady said, “We are like twins!” But then when it was time to take their pictures and go Grady wasn’t having it. He started being a turd and refused to stand with his brother in front of the tree for a picture. I got frustrated with him and he started crying. All of our sudden our fun Santa day wasn’t fun at all. So I told the kids we weren’t going anymore and then Joshua started crying.

Finally everyone calmed down and we agreed to go and Grady stood in front of the tree for a picture. Of course when we got to the mall he refused to go anywhere near Santa. Little turd.

The funny thing is I posted this picture to Instagram and I’m sure people thought we were doing something fun that day or something holiday related and all was happy. But the truth behind the lens is it was tears and fighting and frustration.

And that’s what you’d learn if pictures could talk.