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Ahhhhh!! Where have I been? I got super overwhelmed with this space. It started to feel like one more thing on my to-do list that I just didn’t have time for. I put too much pressure on myself and it was no longer enjoyable. So I took a very long break. But I’ve missed it! I’ve missed this outlet. And I feel like blogs have taken a backseat to podcasts. Who blogs anymore? Everyone has their own podcast and podcasts have become popular because you can listen and multitask. We are in a world of hustle after all! (Please feel the slight resentment in my voice in that last statement.) But I’ve never been one to follow the crowd or care about what’s in style. So here I am going back to blogging while everyone else is trying to be an Instagram influencer!

It’s 6:30am which means it’s time for me to get moving. I must wake the sleepy boys. Joshua will want a bun with butter warmed in the microwave for 10 seconds and plain milk with a vitamin on top. Grady will want chocolate milk and no vitamin because they are too sour this early in the morning. And maybe some cereal. That’s hit or miss. Then it’s time for me to slap on some makeup and do something with the hair. Get dressed and out the door by 7:20am. On to another school day!

Update on the boys and Nathan and work and all the things coming soon!

2018 Reflection

2018 was…hard. It was change. It was heartbreak. But it wasn’t all bad. There were some really great memories made with my boys. A LOT of fishing! So much fishing. I reclaimed my health and was the most fit I’ve ever been in my life. A new job. So let’s look back at 2018 starting at the beginning.

January.

New tonneau cover!

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February.

Influenza hit our house. Baaaad.

 

March.

Our first fishing trip! We headed up the river with our friend, Tina.

April.

Spring Break with my boys! We hit up the Aquatic Center. I also fell in love with Brett Eldredge at his concert in Pullman with my bestie, Brittnie.

May.

I got a new job in the Lewiston School District!!! Joshua graduated from kindergarten.

June.

The last day at Asotin Elementary for Joshua and I. A lot of fishing in Harrison, Idaho at the IBN Qualifier.

July.

My favorite holiday. A welcomed bestie date on the deck. Uncle Mike’s Defeat ALS golf scramble. More fishing in Harrison, Idaho.

A trip to the North Fork with best friends to escape the harsh reality of home. My dad in ICU.

 

August.

Saying goodbye to my Dad. A new camper. Fishing on the Snake on Dad’s birthday. Starting new schools for the boys and I.

 

September.

October.

October we were blessed with so many beautiful days. The weather was awesome! We took advantage of one of those days and took the boys bass fishing on the Skeeter. We had the best day. The boys love fishing on the boat and so do we! Nathan got a super nice fall smallmouth.

We also had the Greene wedding! It was Clay’s turn to get married. And he married UP that’s for certain! We love Kaitlin and are so happy to welcome her to our framily. Nathan was a groomsmen and Grady was the ring bearer.

We finished October with Halloween. Joshua was Pikachu and Grady was a skeleton again this year.

November.

We had Grateful November at Webster Elementary. I love our monthly spirit days promoting positive character traits.

November is also the month the boys got their new fishing boat! Nathan finally found the perfect Lund on Craigslist in CDA. We drove up after work on a Friday night to pick it up. As fate would have it it dumped a couple of inches of snow on the drive up. Nathan wasn’t feeling comfortable pulling a boat he hadn’t towed before on the snowy highway, in the dark, with his entire family in the truck so we decided to find a hotel room and stay the night! It was completely unplanned and turned out to be one of my favorite memories of 2018. We ate dinner at The Olive Pit and stayed in a nice hotel. The boys loved it!

We also celebrated Thanksgiving at the cabin again. It’s my favorite tradition. We burned piles and piles of pine needles. The huge bonfire was so fun. It was peaceful and relaxing and we soaked up every minute of our couple days getaway to the cabin for the holiday.

December.

December was a welcomed 2 week break from school for the kids and I! We had Joshua’s Christmas concert at Lewiston High School and we made it up to my Uncle Mike’s for a Sprenger family Christmas.

We ended the month with a steelhead trip with great friends. I caught the biggest steelhead I’ve ever caught and it was a great finish to the year!

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Winter Blues

Where have I been in this space? Cuddled up under a blanket in the corner not wanting to talk to anyone or do anything. I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder and this year it’s quite a bit worse than years past.

What am I doing to work through it?

–Eating healthy even when I just want to down all the carbs because I know that will only feel good in the moment. Eating crappy actually makes you feel worse.

–Exercising. I’m following my program and working out 6 days a week.

–Finding something in everyday that I can look forward to or be excited about. And it’s not big things. Today I was looked forward to being able to watch The Bachelor after the boys went to bed.

–Taking natural supplements.

I hope to be back to feeling like myself soon. And then hopefully I will be back into this space more.

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Motherhood is…”It hurts you more than it hurts them.”

I guarantee in your motherhood journey a friend is going to say to you, “It hurts you more than it hurts them.”

When it comes to discipline it hurts mom hearts A LOT. I feel guilty, I question myself and what I’m doing, I feel sad for my kids…

And my kids? They just get mad at me and frustrated. Well let me tell ya mad and frustrated are a lot easier emotions to feel than guilt, self-doubt and sadness.

And just when I think I’ve emotionally damaged my kids with a punishment they turn around and repeat the behavior. Yup, pretty sure the punishment hurt me more than my kids.

The truth is, my boys know that I love them. And I’m just doing my best not to raise little assholes.

Weekend Recap • Low Key

Weekends aren’t too exciting for the Tumelsons. We aren’t winter people so we turn into major homebodies in the winter.

Friday night we had our weekly pizza night. We just hung out in front of the TV.

Saturday Nathan wanted to work in the Skeeter boat that is hibernating in our friend’s shop so we went over to Ryan and Tina’s. Nathan worked in the boat in the shop and I sat in the house with Tina. We chatted for hours and it was great to catch up.

We stopped by Rosauers on the way home and grabbed some steaks to grill for dinner.

Sunday was all the Sunday things. I made pancakes and bacon for breakfast. I love cooking weekend breakfast for my family.

Then Grady and I went to Walmart and Costco and got some groceries. I found a dog bed for Sage at Costco. Our girl is getting older and I feel like she needs spoiled in her old age. She loves it!

I did laundry and cleaned the house with Nathan worked in his little boat and the boys played “fishing” games.

I baked some yummy Valentines cookies from scratch…

HAHAHA! Yeah right. I don’t bake. I need really simple cookies. Like break the cookie dough squares apart and put them on the baking sheet simple.

Real life.

I made Costco chicken Alfredo for dinner, got all caught up on The Bachelor and it was early to bed for Monday.

Grady would have slept here all night with his puppy if I’d let him.

Happy Monday!

Follow Friday

It’s Fri-Yay!! I am so ready for a weekend with my family. My hubby is finally feeling better (not quite 100% but getting there) and I’m looking forward to a happier weekend the last 2…

Today I thought I’d changed it up from the typical Friday Favorites to my favorite Instagram profiles to follow. So in no particular order, here we go!

Autumn Calabrese. She is my favorite fitness instructor. I love working out with Autumn on Beachbody on Demand and I love her no bullshit approach to fitness through her Instagram. If you have excuses Autumn is going to call you out!

Joel Freeman. I mean other than the eye-candy, HELLO! He’s another fitness coach I love to follow because he takes a REAL LIFE approach to health and fitness. He drinks wine and eats the birthday cake. Joel teaches how to be fit and healthy yet enjoy some of those indulges in life guilt free.

Just Ingredients is a page I recently discovered and you all need to follow her right NOW. She brings to the forefront all of the chemically made ingredients that are SO bad for us. I mean cancer linked bad for us. She will tell you simple, easy alternatives (we’re talking same shelf at the grocery store) that could save your life.

Teachers Follow Teachers. Because this teacher loves to get sneak peaks into other teachers’ classrooms and steal ideas.

Tony Robbins. Just a life mentor. This guy is probably my #1 to follow.

Baby’s First Breath. This is the birth photography page of my dear friends Amy McCall And Whitney Barnes. And because birth stories are my favorite I love all the mamas and babies in my feed. Plus Amy and Whit are amazing at their job!!

There you have it. Go find them on Insta!

Happy Friday!!!

Mom Guilt

Mom guilt…every mom everywhere has experienced it. And lately it’s been heavy on my heart. Why? Because I don’t play with my kids enough. And I yell. A lot.

It’s winter and the Tumelsons hate winter. We aren’t the family to gear up and head to the mountains for sledding because we’d all last about 10 minutes and then we’d be cold and wet and want to go home. Even though this winter has been mild and in the 40’s that’s still about 15 minutes max for us and then we are back indoors next to the fireplace. So we are stuck inside and bored. My kids have more energy than they know what to do with. And the running and the jumping and the screaming and the fighting, even the delightful squeals are pushing me over the edge. So I yell. I lose my cool.

I’m also a firm believer in kids learning how to entertain themselves. It’s not my job to be friends with my kids and play with them. They should be able to play by themselves and boredom creates creativity. But sometimes I think I take that belief so far that a whole weekend will go by and I haven’t engaged in anything with my kids except cook for them, pick up after them and lose my patience with them.

But let’s be honest. Board games are ZERO fun with my kids. Joshua is a poor sport and sucks the fun right out of a game. Grady is too little to follow the rules or know how to play. Scratch that idea. Anytime I’ve got out coloring or crafts it holds their attention for about 5 minutes and then I have a huge mess to clean up. Anytime I’ve looked up Pinterest projects like slime or shaving cream Joshua freaks out about the texture and doesn’t like it. Each time I’ve tried to get them in the kitchen to bake cookies with me I end up doing it by myself because they last in the kitchen about 5 seconds.

I’m raising boys. Boys that want to run and jump and wrestle and shoot nerf guns at each other. And Mama just ain’t into all that. I do hang with them a lot outside in the summer. But this winter thing is lame. And we are all cooped up. And I don’t want to play with my kids.

And that’s the guilty truth.

February Home Decor

Getting out the Valentines Day decor made my heart happy for a few reasons…

1. It reminds me that February is so close. My birthday month. Joshua’s birthday month.

2. Valentines Day. I will always remember that first Valentine’s Day as a mom. Joshua was only 5 days old. Nathan had been home with us on paternity leave and my heart was so full. We always stay home and have a steak dinner.

3. When it’s time for the Valentines decor to come down the SPRING decor goes up!! YAS! Spring makes me heart hopeful.

So here is a little peak at my home. All signs of December/January officially gone.

Mantle.

The boys table in the living room. This is where they eat sometimes and do homework.

Entrance table. Valentines Day is all about the roses.

On top of our coat rack in the dining room.

Our dining room table and the table runner Grandma Linda made me. 💕

Chalkboard.

It’s the little things like a home decor change up to pull me out of the winter blues!

Recap • Recovery

Where have I been?! This blog has been pretty quiet. Well, here’s the truth. When life gets overwhelming for me this space is the first thing to take a back seat. I love to write but often the blog feels like something else on my list that I have to do so when life gets hard I just don’t stress about getting it done. So I’ve taken some time off. And here’s why…

My class this year is HARD. So hard. The most challenging class I’ve ever been called to teach. Coming back from Christmas Break has been rough. It felt like the first few weeks of school all over again and I came home just completely spent. Mentally, emotionally and physically exhausted. I would make dinner for my family and then hang out on the couch with my boys and was in bed by 8pm every night.

I also started a new workout program in the mornings. It’s Shaun T’s Transform 20 and it’s intense cardio. I just have the hardest time getting up for cardio at 4am so I changed my morning routine a bit. It works for me but it doesn’t give me as much quiet time in the mornings. I get up at 4:45am and drink my pre-workout. I workout from 5-5:30am and then after my shower I get coffee time from 5:45-6:15am. Between reading my Bible and watching a few minutes of the news I don’t have time to write a blog post. So I’ve gotta figure out how to add this into my routine.

And the other thing that’s been going on…well…Nathan had a vasectomy. And this was supposed to be a simple procedure that turned into a simple recovery. He had it done on Friday, January 11th. Today is the 21st and he’s still not better. He’s still swollen and bruised and in pain. Because it was supposed to be a simple recovery but he got an infection. It’s been awful. He’s been in so much pain and discomfort. To make it worse this morning he took his last antibiotic and he’s still not better. And the antibiotic he’s taking is really hard on his stomach. And now he has to call the doctor and ask for more antibiotic because he’s not better. And he’s losing his patience and I don’t blame him. I’ve cried multiple times for him. I’m so helpless. I can’t do anything to help him. So I’ve just been trying to make really good food for him. I’ve been nurturing the heck out of him. Probably overboard because it’s the only way to feel like I’m helping.

Here’s a couple of the good meals I’ve made in the last week…

Skillet pizza

Breakfast casserole

meatballs with penne pasta

Needless to say my anxiety has been pretty worked up lately. And when I get anxious I get quiet. So that’s where I’ve been and why this blog has been quiet.

Prayers for my husband are welcomed.

P.S. It’s still January.

Sunday Meal Planning • Jan 6th

Wowza we have a busy week ahead! It’s all about report card assessments at school as we near the end of the first semester. I have 2 parent meetings and a training at the district office. Nathan has an pre-op appointment and a surgical procedure on Friday. I took the day off to be with him. So ya know throw sub notes into all that mix. Joshua has his breakfast of champions at school and is being recognized for being the respect student of the month. My mother-in-law has a birthday on Tuesday. But what I think I’m most excited for this week is…The Bachelor starts tomorrow!

So with all that being said, my meals this week are quick and easy!

Monday: Sheet pan baked chicken wings and steamed veggies

Tuesday: Crunchy Taco Hamburger Helper and corn

Wednesday: Baked chicken breasts topped with cheese & salsa and a green salad

Thursday: Elk fried steak topped with country gravy, mashed potatoes and green beans

Friday: Pioneer Woman’s skillet pizza

The nice thing about a busy week is they go by fast and next weekend at home with my family will be here before ya know it!

Cheers!