52:44

Motherhood is…Being Goofy.

My boys absolutely love being goofy! They adore silliness and love when Mom and Dad get silly with them. I make their world a little better every time I act like a goofball with them. We dance silly in the kitchen. We joke and laugh at the dinner table. We make funny faces and funny noises. And they laugh and laugh and laugh. And I know they will outgrow this, but not completely. My teenage boys will act so embarrassed by mom the goofball but they will be smiling inside. 😉

10 on the 10th: Ten Pics from 2018

If I were to describe 2018 in one word it would be CHANGE. So much lost and gained and changed.

Here are 10 pictures from 2018.

Ten. Saying Goodbye.

I said goodbye to my Asotin family to change school districts.

Nine. State Team.

Nathan made the Idaho B.A.S.S. Nation state team again but this time as pro angler! He caught this hog the last day of the tournament.

Eight. The End of Summer Bliss

The 4th of July is my favorite holiday and this last summer I feel like the 4th was the end of my summer. Shortly after the 4th shit hit the fan with my family and the rest of the summer wasn’t lazy days by the pool…but look at these American cuties!

Seven. New Camper

We bought a brand new camper and this was a highlight of the year for sure!!

Six. Joshua started 1st grade at a new school!

Five. Grady started school for the first time at a new school!

Four. Grady turned 4!

Three. The Greene Wedding

Grady got a turn to be a ring bearer in a Greene wedding. We are so honored Clay and Kaitlin asked him.

Two. Impromptu Weekend.

We got snowed in CDA and got a hotel room. Completely unplanned and one of my favorite memories of the year.

One. New Job.

I started teaching at Webster Elementary and joined a new school family!

2018 has been the hardest year of my life losing my dad in such a traumatic way. I am soo ready to kick this year goodbye and start a fresh new year!

Friday Favorites

It’s FRIDAY! Yes, Friday. I woke up this morning to my son coughing & triggering his monitor to light up, which woke me up, and I legit thought it was Saturday. I snuggled into my husband just content as can be dreaming of the coffee, PJs and breakfast we’d all share as a family and then I realized it’s NOT Saturday and not only do I have to work today but my alarm was about to go off at 4:10am so I could workout! Oy. Tough realization. But workout is complete and now I’m enjoying a cup of coffee before the workday hustle begins. At least it’s Fri-yay!

So here are some favorites coming at ya!

I found a new liquid foundation that I LOVE. It’s full coverage but light as a feather. It doesn’t clog my pores or cause breakouts. Favorite!

I’ve been slightly hooked on holiday Sixlets. I bought in the bulk bin at Winco. Might have been a mistake because I can’t stop eating them but, a favorite!

Also at Winco, in the check out aisle I picked up this special edition of People magazine. This Is Us is a favorite for sure!!

Our best friends Clay and Kaitlin Greene got their wedding photos back and this one is my favorite! The look at Grady’s face when he spotted me coming down the aisle is priceless!

Also my absolute favorite right now is my fireplace. I love when it’s all decorated for the holidays. My Snapchat followers are probably over it but it’s so pretty and I love it!

December with these two little boys is always my favorite. It’s the best celebrating Christmas with them!!! ❤️ Also. When Joshua gets all dressed up I die. 😍

And that’s a wrap for the week! We don’t have any plans this weekend but I’ve got to get my shopping done! I’m stressing which is what I wanted to avoid. Darn it.

A Day in the Life

Here is a look at a day in our life in this season.

I woke up at 4:10am and got dressed for my workout. I have Beachbody On Demand so I can stream hundreds of workouts on my computer, IPad or phone. I use my IPad. Right now I’m doing the 80 Day Obsession program by Autumn Calabrese. Working out at 4:30am is HARD but it’s fun working out with this group. They laugh a lot.

Then I showered and hit the couch for some quiet time. I drink my coffee, watch the news and blog.

At 6:30am I got the boys up and made them chocolate milk and started getting myself ready for the day. After I was dressed and ready I helped the boys get dressed and we were out the door by 7:20am. I dropped the boys off at my mom’s house and then headed to work. I stopped and grabbed a coffee from Hot Shots Expresso first. They are my FAVORITE coffee shop in town!

I get to school between 7:45am-8am everyday. This gives me a nice hour before school starts to prepare for my day ahead. 8:55am the bell rings! The kids were inside yesterday because it was so cold outside. 22 degrees seems warm enough to be outside in my opinion but I don’t make those calls. 🙂 We started our day researching more information about Hanukkah on the IPads.

The kids took notes and then they will begin their informational writing about Hanukkah.

Later in the day we made Dreidels and played a couple rounds with a friend!

School gets out at 3:30pm and teachers are contracted to stay until 3:45pm. After school I picked up the boys because Nathan had a meeting after work so he was later than normal. He’s usually home from Pullman around 3:20pm each day so he picks up the boys.

We came home and I immediately got started on dinner. I made Ree Drummond’s white chicken spaghetti.

After dinner I did the dishes while Joshua sat at the kitchen counter and did his homework.

Of course where Joshua is, Grady is. So Grady sat at the counter with Joshua to watch.

Wednesday nights are my laundry nights and Nathan’s night to do the bath and bedtime routine. So while daddy helped the boys I folded laundry.

The boys were tucked into bed by 7:30pm and I finally got to sit down for the first time. Nathan watched a cowboy movie and I browsed social media for a bit. Then by 8:15pm we were in bed! We both get up at 4am so by 8pm we are pretty spent!

And that’s what a typical weekday looks like for us!

How Expectation Will Fail You

ex•pec•ta•tion: a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future.

synonym: assumption

Now we’ve all heard the saying for assume…make an ass out of u and me. But I don’t think expectation gets the proper warning.

Expectation is the strong belief that something will happen. It’s not thinking “oh if it happens great if not that’s okay.” It’s believing that something will happen! Expectation is putting it in your heart and your gut that certain situations and/or people will play out the way you believe it. The danger? We aren’t in control and when our expectations aren’t met it can be crushing.

And when you’re crushed it’s easy to turn to anger and frustration. And when you’re angry and frustrated it’s impossible to be grateful. I know I talk about gratitude a lot but it’s because I truly believe it’s the key to happiness. Gratitude can defeat anger and bitterness, frustration, depression and expectation.

So what do we do about it? We have to stop expecting life to happen a certain way and remember that we aren’t in charge. We have to trust in what’s bigger than us. The Universe. God.

I expected my Dad to be present in my life and my children’s lives. I expected him to be a wonderful Papa like I had. But he was sick and he left us. It’s easy for me to get angry at him. So angry that I fail to give him credit for all that he did do and for the man he was. I didn’t expect my dad to die at 58 years old. But I can change my heart when I let go of those failed expectations and turn to gratitude. I am grateful that his struggles are over. I am grateful that God took him home and ended his hardship. I am grateful that I have a dad who loved me so much and I never questioned how much he loved me. I always knew it. Everyday of my life I knew that my dad adored me. I am so grateful for that.

That doesn’t mean I don’t grieve. Notice I never said that gratitude replaces sadness. Because we can grieve with a grateful heart. I miss him.

I fully expected my new job to be a smooth and happy transition. And then it wasn’t. It was a rocky and hard transition. I found myself crying at my new desk the first few weeks because my expectations weren’t met. But I can’t stay there in that disappointed place. If I continue to expect my career to happen a certain way I will miss out on all the good that God has given me in this change. I am so grateful for the new people that have been put in my life. I am thankful to be a part of this big, strong school district that supports a quality education for all kids. I get to be a part of the same school district I grew up in teaching with some of my old teachers. I get to be a part of the brand new high school and all the excitement, growth and opportunity that brings. I get to work in the same school district as my kids and be fully present in their lives. I am grateful for the growth and contribution this new job is providing me.

The last couple of months have been a hard time for me. And as it slowly gets better each day and I’m able to reflect back on my struggles , I realize that I was expecting too much and not thanking God enough. I have SO much good in my life to focus on and appreciate. So much good. My babies, my husband, my mom and in-laws, my job, my home, my friends, my health, my dad and grandparents in Heaven who are waiting for me. A Father who is always with me.

Stop expecting life to happen. Live in each day and be grateful for what that day brings.

52:43

Motherhood is…A Safe Place

The look of recognition and relief when your child spots you in a crowded room. The way they cling tightly to your hand while crossing the street or squeeze tight to your leg when surrounded by the unknown. The way they run to you for comfort when they get hurt. When he crawls into your bed in the middle of the night because he had a bad dream and snuggles in close. When he crawls in your lap because emotions can be big and hard to handle so he’s looking for comfort.

One of my favorite parts of motherhood is being a safe place for my children.

Weekend Recap • A December Weekend

We just had a nice little December weekend. Full of holiday movies and treat baking and hanging out together.

Friday night was our usual pizza night. We ate in front of the TV and watched The Christmas Chronicles on Netflix.

Saturday Nathan took the new little fishing boat out on the river after working on the motor the last few weeks. The boys and I went to Walmart to buy some Christmas lights and ingredients for holidays treats. We watched The Pioneer Woman Cowboy Christmas Swap that morning and the boys (all three of them) were drooling over the different cookies!

The boat ran great for Nathan and when he got home I made an easy chicken strips and french fries for dinner. Again we ate dinner in the living room and watched “The Santa Claus.” Dinner on the weekends is fun because we get to eat in the living room with movies.

Sunday we grabbed our Walmart grocery pickup and then spent the day inside just hanging out. It was a pretty wet and cold day.

I did some baking and made Ree Drummond’s holiday haystacks.

Nathan hung the Christmas lights up on the house and surprised the boys with the light projector! Boy were they excited to see our house all light up. Daddy did good!

And just like that another weekend was over. Sunday night bedtime came too soon. This week I have my school’s holiday concert, coffee with my bestie, Nathan has a class and I have multiple staff meetings. Busy as always!