This was the strangest feeling Christmas yet and in the spirit of being really REAL (because I’ve said this time and time again my blog is real life not the highlight reel of the social media world) I am so glad it’s over. The first Christmas without my dad is done and I am so thankful for that. Building up to it I didn’t feel this way. I was excited for Christmas and even found myself in the Christmas spirit. But as the holiday got closer and closer I found myself less and less excited about it. I tried really hard to make the best of it for my family but my heart had a significant hole in it. But the boys loved Christmas nonetheless in ways only children can.
Christmas Eve we went to Nathan’s parent’s house. We had French dips for dinner and they were delicious. Then we opened gifts. When we got home the boys got to open their Xmas Eve gift from me. I always buy them Christmas pajamas every year that they open on Xmas Eve. Normally I have a DVD with them but this year they got shark pocket blankets with their PJ’s and they were so excited!
We set out cookies and milk for Santa and the boys went to bed with anxious hearts. Nathan and I went downstairs and finished wrapping their stocking stuffers. Then we went out into the garage and wrapped their basketball hoop from Santa. It made such a giant present and we were so excited for the boys to wake up to it in the morning. Santa also got them basketballs and nerf footballs.
Joshua was up at 5am but I made him go back to bed for a bit. By 6:10am we were all up and in front of the tree opening presents. The bows from their daddy was on of their favorite gifts. And they were JACKED about their new basketball hoop from Santa!
Around Noon my mom came over to the spend Christmas Day with us. My Grandma also came over and we opened gifts with them. My mom gifted me the last necklace my dad ever bought her. He got it for her on their last vacation to Hawaii (they went almost every January) and this gift is so so special. Not only is this necklace beautiful but it represents my dad and I will think of him and Hawaii ever time I look at it.
Nathan’s parents also came over around 3pm and Nathan smoked a prime rib for the family. It was AMAZING! He did good. So good.
We sat around the table and enjoyed a few beers and good talk. Around 5:30pm everyone went home and I was wiped out. Just completely wiped. We all put on our PJ’s and Joshua was more than happy to wear his new Minecraft pajamas. We all were in bed by 7:30pm.
It was a very nice Christmas. I have so much to be grateful for. The health of my babies. My sweet husband. My mom who is getting stronger by the day who has been blessed in so many ways the last couple of months. My in-laws who mean the world to me. My grandma. We were fortunate to fill the house with gifts and were financially comfortable in doing so. My heart was grateful but it was also sad. I missed Grandma Linda and Papa Gene and Papa Jim and my Dad more than my little heart could handle this year. So I’m glad it’s over.