It has been a long time since my last post. Joshua was 6 months old, not even crawling yet. Like I said, it’s been awhile. I’m sure anyone who was following this blog gave up on me long ago. There were times when I thought about posting but then felt like I shouldn’t because I wasn’t keeping up on the blog on a daily, or even a weekly, basis. Then a mother I very much admire posted on her blog after 6 months of silence stating that she was not a failure at blogging because she put down the technology and spent time with her son. After reading that I thought, “Yeah-exactly! Who says you have to post consistently to be a successful blogger?!” I mean, who is this blog really for anyway? Do I write for other people? No. I write for myself. I write because moments and feelings get lost in time. I write to remember.
The end of the year is a time of reflection. You can look back at the past year and regret it or cherish it but the one constant in life is that it goes on; the new year always comes around as a chance for a fresh start. My 2012 was a pivotal year in my life–I HAD A BABY! It doesn’t get more life-changing than that! It has been the most rewarding, exhausting, joyful, stressful, amazing, terrifying, precious, anxious, fast, wonderful and hard year. There have been moments of desperation and moments of pure happiness. I have felt more anxiety than I’ve ever felt in my life as well as love that I didn’t know existed in my heart.
I know that 2013 is going to be just as life-changing. I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I got pregnant and something tells me that my life is about to be turned upside yet again as we enter the unique experience of toddlerhood. However, I do not doubt that as my toddler challenges me in ways that a newborn never could, he will also force me to fall even deeper in love with him. My sweet Joshua James. ❤
Here’s to another incredible year of watching my baby grow and change. I can’t wait for the big birthday party on February 9th, fishing trips, camping trips, and next year’s holiday season as Joshua will be even more into everything. My goals for the new year are to continue to grow as a mother and a wife, lose a few pounds, buy a new car, and become a stronger, more confident teacher to those sweet little kindergartners. Life is good and I am so looking forward to the new year. 🙂