First Time Mommies

Blogs have become my new favorite thing.  There are so many good ones out there with great ideas, inspiring advice, crafty creativness, and feel good moments.  My blog isn’t any of these things.  It’s just me bragging about how much I love my son and I love my life.  Nothing creative.

I have had a few people tell me that they like to read my blog because as a first time mom it helps to read about someone else in the same shoes.  Boy, I can relate to that one!

This first time mommy business is scary!  It’s wonderful and beautiful and absolutely the best but it makes you nervous and anxious and scared out of your pants.

So, first time mommies reading this blog, let me be the first one to tell you the things that most people fail to tell you.  I am no expert, I just had my very first child a little over 3 months ago, but boy have I learned a thing or two in those 3 short months.  One thing I learned is that pregnancy books and your friends have no way to truely prepare you for the aftermath of having a baby (and neither can I).  Yes, they will warn you about the lack of sleep.  They will tell you how you’re going to feel love you didn’t know exsisted.  You will hear that labor HURTS.  But here are a few things they may not tell you…

1. Breastfeeding doesn’t happen by animal instinct.  It is natural, yes, but it doesn’t just happen.  You and your baby have to learn together how to breastfeed.

2. The postpartum stage lasts longer than 6 weeks.  Don’t expect to feel 100% back to yourself at the end of 6 weeks because you’ll be strongly disappointed.  Emotionally and physically, your body needs time to readjust.

3.  It is OKAY and NORMAL if you don’t fall in love with motherhood right away and you can’t seem to find happiness for awhile.  They are called hormones and they are in control of everything!  After awhile, they will balance themselves out again and you will slowly begin to feel like yourself once more and that is when you’ll really start to enjoy this new life called motherhood.

4.  Just because the hemorrhoids didn’t show up for baby’s housewarming party doesn’t mean you’re in the clear.

5.  You will be wearing diapers right along with your baby for awhile after birth.

6. This too will pass.  Life goes quickly.  Oh so quickly.  Life happens in stages that come and go.  So hold onto to faith during the challenging stages and cherish the enjoyable ones.  (You won’t be up every 2 hours during the night forever.)

7.  Finally, as I’m learning more and more everyday…you don’t just fall in love with your baby at first sight and that’s it.  Your love grows and grows along every step of the way.  That is what makes it all worth every second.

J-Baby

Joshua James is the sweetest little boy.  As a newborn he was precious and sweet and I completely fell in love with him.  Now, at 3.5 months I absolutely adore him.  He smiles and giggles and kicks his feet really fast.  He flirts and sucks on his hands and likes to be held in the sitting position because he feels like a big boy.  He tries to sit up on his own everytime I put him in his bouncy seat.  He’s changing and growing all the time and everytime he does something new I fall more in love with him.

This weekend is the first Memorial Day weekend I can ever remember that we’re not going camping.  The weather report called for 50 degrees and rainy in the mountains, not camping weather for a tiny boy.  I’m anxious to take Joshua on his first trip on the North Fork but I think we’ll wait until the weather is quite a bit warmer.  I’m still really looking forward to the weekend because I get three whole days hanging out with my boy!  We have a BBQ with some good friends tonight and just relaxing the rest of the time.  Perfect.

Finally…An Update!

Wow…it has been far too long since my last blog!  Joshua was 6 weeks old the last time I posted and he’s now 3 1/2 months!!!  He looks so different now from the last pictures I posted.  See?

Rolling onto his side now. 🙂

Going back to work was more challenging than I anticipated.  By the end of my maternity leave I was saying, “This stay at home mom thing is not for me.  I’m ready to go back to work.”  And I love my job…I really LOVE my job!  How many people can say that?  I’m so lucky.  But being away from Joshua all day, every day is hard.  I only get to see him a few hours in the evening before he goes to bed.  Saturday and Sunday are my only full days with him.  Sometimes I can’t help but think to myself, “Does he know I’m his mom?”  It’s a silly thought I know, but he sees me the least out of anyone.  It tugs at my heart.  Needless to say I’m really looking forward to summer vacation starting in 2 weeks when I’ll get to be with my little boy every day again. (And by the end of August I’m sure I’ll be singing a different tune.  Ah the bittersweetness of being a working mom.)

Life is different.  I’m different.  This job is the HARDEST job there is.  I say job because it takes work to raise a child.  I am at Joshua’s side every time he asks for me, every time.  Regardless of the time, what I’m in the middle of, or what I need to get done (like go to the bathroom) I drop everything to tend to him when he needs me.  It is a 100% selfless job.

With that being said, I get to look into those beautiful eyes everyday and tell him, “I’m your mom.”  No one else gets to say that to him.   Only me.

I get to be that special person in his life.  His first love.  So I will do this job over and over again because it is so worth it.  Every second.

Joshua gets a gold medal in sleeping.  He has been sleeping through the night since he was 9 weeks old.  We’re in the routine of going to bed every night at 7:00pm and he doesn’t wake again until 5:00am.  I’ll feed him at 5:00am and usually he’ll go back down til 6:00am.  We’re early risers in this house because Nathan and I both have to be to work by 7:00am.  He’s awesome about going down, too.  I’ll feed him, swaddle him, in the crib he goes and fast asleep he falls.  He’s never been one to cry himself to sleep.  It’s so wonderful!

Eating has been our issue.  Oh the tears I’ve cried over Joshua’s sensitive stomach.  I finally gave up breastfeeding which completely broke my heart.  It was a decision I agonized over for weeks before I finally made the switch to formula.  When I finally did, you know what happened?  Our baby transformed from a screaming, burping, throwing up, unsettled baby (crying for hours every. single. night.) to a happy and content baby.  And I, the ball of stress, mellowed out and started to enjoy motherhood that much more.

Joshua has started to giggle.  Oh it’s so cute!  SO CUTE.

He has quite a bit more neck control.  When he’s laying down Nathan will grab him by the arms and bring him to a sit-up position and Joshua can hold his head without it flopping back.  The other day Nathan brought Joshua all the way to a standing up position from lying on the floor.

And he’s such a flirt!

Ohhh my little bird has come such a long way in just 3 months.

From a newborn…

To a baby…